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About Me Member Deviant of Many Talents BlackPanZFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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Fear is....

Fear infects not only the body, it infects the world and kills it slowly. but without it we wouldnt not survive. this piece is part of a Gandhi project, to honor and continue his messages.

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i'm an artist of words,
they are a passage to my heart,
to my soul.
i can paint a picture in a mind or simply show the eyes.
i am an artist,
a name i hold with honor.

Journal History

I'm lost

Wed Sep 16, 2009, 11:58 PM
i have no idea if i can do all that life is expecting me to do. that is to put it simply.

1. i dont know if i can stay. and deal with staying, all the therapy, the problems, the drama, the hurting, the expectations. to deal with his problems and not know anything for sure. will he be different? will he be better to me? will he be worth the wait in the end? i'm expecting alot...

2. i dont know if i can go. and deal with the leaving, the heart-break, the tears, the downward spirals, the future boys, the war that would happen inside me, the pain i would cause myself. what if he really is the only one who will ever make me that happy? what if there is someone else who makes me happier? i could have alot of fun...pretending to be all ok.

3. i dont know if i can deal at all. maybe i should just leave, move away, go away, never look back. deal with the pain, pretend like it never happened and move on. do i have the strength to do that? i dont think so...

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  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Stay by Sugarland and Take a Bow by Rihanna
  • Watching: my own reflection fall apart

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: where it rains
  • Interests: photography, poetry, writing novels, finding wild and crazy people, trying new things,
  • Favourite genre of music: ask me later
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephenie Meyer and Scott Westerfeld
  • Favourite photographer: me.
  • Favourite style of art: photography
  • Wallpaper of choice: that velvety stuff that is also mettalic
  • Skin of choice: my own?!
  • Favourite game: SCRABBLE!!! nick, my love
  • Personal Quote: "Rules are made by those who are hypocrits."
  • MSN: candybubbles63@hotmail.com

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:iconhwaigon:
~Hwaigon Oct 1, 2009, 10:42:29 AM
you are very pretty.
hope you dont have complexes about your freckles. Theyre beautyful
:iconblackpanz:
~BlackPanZ Oct 3, 2009, 10:25:34 AM
thank you?
that is very random and spontanious :)

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it was all unimportant,
before you kissed my nape
and asked me for a future.
:iconmakaykayfoshizzle:
~MakaykayFOshizzle Jul 27, 2009, 5:06:37 PM
Fanks for the fave<3 :3

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This is my happy signature. :(

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:iconmakaykayfoshizzle:
~MakaykayFOshizzle Jul 9, 2009, 4:28:15 PM
Fank you for the faves!♥

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This is my happy signature. :(

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:iconblackpanz:
~BlackPanZ Jul 9, 2009, 7:12:17 PM
:) of course

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it was all unimportant,
before you kissed my nape
and asked me for a future.
:iconmakaykayfoshizzle:
~MakaykayFOshizzle Jul 9, 2009, 7:18:13 PM
=3

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This is my happy signature. :(

[link]
:iconitaylie:
*iTaylie Jun 22, 2009, 11:28:41 PM
:love:

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I did a shit on your shit
Irony completed ©
:iconblackpanz:
~BlackPanZ Jun 23, 2009, 8:35:56 PM
:]

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it was all unimportant,
before you kissed my nape
and asked me for a future.
:iconsuddien:
~Suddien Jun 4, 2009, 6:59:51 PM
Thank you Ms BlackPanZ for adding my poem as a favorite. You are very kind
:iconblackpanz:
~BlackPanZ Jun 4, 2009, 9:57:00 PM
well thank you for writing such inspiring poetry. :]
you are very polite

--
it was all unimportant,
before you kissed my nape
and asked me for a future.
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